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Imagine you were Akkayva. Narrate your feelings after your meeting with
sister in Delhi. Focus on her life.
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Answer:
I have known since I was a child that my Mom gave my sister up for adoption when I was 2, actually make that half sister. We have different dad's. When I was 7 my Mom had my younger sister with the same guy she had (the baby she had adopted out) with, so they are full sisters. The whole adoption thing never bothered me, I had a little sister to torment so I never really felt like I had missed anything. Growing up I had wished I was the only child. actually, because my sister was such a brat. My Mom raised us as a single mom.
Right now I am 23, my sister will be 17 in a few days. And the baby my Mom gave up is now 21. A few years back I found her on facebook and we began to get to know one another, she added my youngest sister as well, but never felt comfortable enough to add my mom. So two days ago we decided it was finally time to meet, just the two of us.
The meet-up:
It went very well. we met at a restaurant and talked for two hours. During this time I noticed how much she looked like my Mom and younger sister, almost identical to them.I found out that she had known since she was very young that she was adopted, and explained to me why she did not feel ready to meet my mom. She drove me home, we said our good byes, and that was that.
The dilema:
After getting home from meeting my sister is when everything started to bother me. Here I had this sister who was two years younger then me. Did I miss out on a chance to have that sister who I could have really bonded with? Me and my sister who is 7 years younger have never really gotten along. Also she looked so much like my Mom and sister that I felt like she should be in my family. What is really weird is that she has many of the common interests that we have. Her love for animals and riding horses. Her adoptive parents hate animals, and we have always been animal people. Now I feel this almost emptiness that I cannot explain. What could life have been like... I feel like I am missing something that was never their. These feelings did not start until I met her. Before this I never had these feelings. I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk about this with my Mom, because I don't want to upset her.