Question

Please explain from "since......... doing so". What's the meaning of " much as I dislike doing so".

Answer 1

Answer:

She's saying that if she would begin from the point in life she is now i.e she's not having friend and she's 13 year old that's why she want to briefly explain herself otherwise no one would understand her feelings

Explanation:

She dislike explaining herself because she thinks that not one would be interested in musing of a 13 year old school girl and she don't have true friend that she wished for long.