write a diary entry on your friend's behaviour
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Though i wouldn’t say she was my best friend but she was still a very good friend of mine mainly because we belonged to the same state Kerala and it was fun talking about our own favourite things while the others looked on baffled as to what we were saying. She was also the class topper and was quite pretty too. This [not the fight] begins when we were in 11th. There were 6 of us ,girls, promised to be the best of friends. She also had two boys as her friends and it was okay for me as i too wanted to get to know them. Now it wasn’t much of a problem until when we entered 12th. You know how it is, its the last year we’re gonna to be together, etc. This also got me. What i hated was the fact that some of my friends talked to the abovesaid friend only to be able to talk to the boys. The way they would roam around with them, sat with them, it got me irritated. But I didn’t say anything. I admit I was a bit jealous about how a boy could attract so many girls.
I got to know that my best friend among these also didn’t like this thing and it would sometimes upset her which in turn would upset me.I had always wanted to do something for her because she was such a nice soul, she had such good values. We called her Miss Perfect. So one fine day[30 Aug, 2017], I got out with it to the friend about how she was not spending enough time with us (though I indirectly said that… probably that’s why she didn’t get it) and how she was hurting us. I figured out she was upset so I texted her saying forget it, let’s be friends again. She didn’t reply and i was ready for that. The next day, I was not in class for the majority of the time ,so my bestie told me how this girl wasn’t talking to her or another of my friend [another nice soul]. It got me really angry since both of them didn’t deserve this. Yet I was ready to talk to her.But of course, she didn’t. But she told everyone about how we had this “fight”. As a result none of my friends talk to me. But what upset me the most is the fact that while chatting with her, she admitted it was her fault…she didn’t deserve such good friends..blah blah blah and now everyone’s like how could she do this? That was the first time I cried so much in school. The next thing that came up was a status that she put up on Whatsapp, apparently written by one of her friends, glorifying her(“your smile that turns a storm into a sun-kissed breeze”). It really hurt me and i spent the next two months crying and getting angry over this. Later one of them asked me to forget these things and be friends again. I told her she didn’t know how I felt and that i was now the baddie according to everyone. I didn’t make any effort though she [the one with whom i had this fight] tried to. Weeks later, I decided to talk it out. Believe me, it took me 2 weeks to get over my nervousness. But finally on 14 Nov,2017 I gather my courage and talk to her.
I asked her why she spread this thing and she gave a lot of excuses saying she always gets angry whenever somebody says something good for her. I also told her that i didn’t like the fact that a girl not from our class was saying that i told you that you were always roaming around boys. She again said she didn’t tell anyone anything like that and neither would- let’s call her Aranya her best friend- do that. I was half satisfied but i agreed to forget and we became ‘friends’ again. But still we didn’t talk to each other.
On 20 Nov i see that during recess in school she and Aranya and one more girl calls one of my friends Ria {not of this group} and talk to her outside the class. When I ask Ria about the matter , she says she would tell me later on. After some time, she tells me that they were talking about me and that they were questioning her about the whole ‘roaming around with boys’ thing. This time i wasn’t angry. I was enraged. How is it that when the matter was all sorted out she is invoking all this again? I felt like dragging her out and slapping her. But my friends (my new friends not of this group) restrained me and i somehow managed to restrict myself.Her very face made me feel like spitting on her .
That day I pulled myself out of their Whatsapp groups and promise to never have anything to do with them. The next day I ask her to talk to me if there is anything regarding me and not drag others out of the classes. Again she starts giving me such explanations, she says her friend Aranya was angry and that’s why she called me a ‘crack’, “Group leader”, etc.(which again hurt me really badly). And the final straw comes when she asks Ria not to interfere in our matters, when on the other hand it is her best friend who is interfering in. She must have told the others but now no one,except 2 who were not involved, talk to me. Otherwise my friends for whom I fought with my friend do not talk to me .
But i don’t care. Because now I have got way better friends than those who didn’t ask me how I felt after all these, those who made judgments based on a one-sided story.
5/12/18
Today I like this day because today my friend helped me a lot. Her name is Disha. Since a week I was having food poison. Today I went to school and today also I was not able to write because of this. I tried in any way to write something but I was not able to write then she wrote everything for me. She always cares for me and cures for me.
Riya