Question

can anyone help me with the essay 'a big mistake'

Answer 1

I never knew when it started, this obsession. Didn’t even realize how slowly and steadily what I thought I could control controlled me. I am not like most people my likes, dislikes and feelings differ from most of the crowd. When did I become someone who cared so much what other people think of me? Now that I think about it, it bafles me how I slowly and steadily from being an individual who preaches about being different suddenly became someone who just wanted to fit in to other people’s expectations. And suddenly I feel I woke up to realize what kind of a slve I had become.
Well to start up on my mistakes, my first one was ever thinking that I can be in a relationship with my best friend. I scr*wed that up pretty 
And I would always go back with him. I wonder why? Was it my ego? The fact that I wanted to hurt him much more than he ever did? Or did I actually like him so? Whatever the reason this continued till finally before the final week before my exam I broke it off swearing I cannot scrw up this too like my boards. But who knew I had already scrwed this up to by constantly living in loathing and vengnce. I had to settle for the second best and did not get the institution of my choice.
I cried. Oh how I cried. How much I hated the fact that I will have to go to the place that I never wanted to go to and had swrn I wouldn’t. But I still got up dusted off and walked. But this stupd human tendency to want something which is never good for you, it wasn’t done with me. Oh no not yet it said and draged me back.
This institution still gave me that opportunity to grow. But no I went and ruined it there too with not one but four people. And now I m left here looking at wrekage. Examining what went wrong and now I realize it. It wasn’t them it was me. I could have easily minded my own business. Stuck to my priorities but I instead signed the sheet to my own ruin.

DO MARK BRAINLIEST