how old are you what makes you so sure about your age
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Answer: I’m 18 and… I feel old and young at the same time.
I feel old in the sense that, I’m a college student. I never thought I’d be a college student. Not just like, oh, I have no future, I’m gonna be jobless, degree-less, homeless and alone. I mean, I did think all that, lol. But I honestly just couldn’t even imagine myself in the future. Like, I didn’t see myself in the future at all. So the fact that I’ve even survived long enough to end up in college is like… incredible. And makes me feel old. I’m just not cut out for life, I feel. I don’t feel like I know how to be a person. It makes me feel like I’m sticking around for something I shouldn’t be, for longer than I’m supposed to. Like I’m already past my expiry date.
I feel young sometimes because I technically am young. I try to remind myself that I still am young. Still a teenager (although I only have one year left). Still technically a girl. Still a kid. Still immature. Still inexperienced. Still have potential.
Still have a chance.
But I can’t shake the feeling that time is running out. I feel late to everything. I feel like I’m stuck in the past, still trying to get over and move on from stuff and get myself in control of my life, while everyone else is coasting through, accomplishing things and doing what they want.
I feel tired. Scared. Kinda hopeless. Weary. Jaded.