WHY EVERY ONE ARE SAD TODAY?
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No I am happy today........
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It’s as if there is a curtain, behind which nobody sees.
And on the stage is me.
I may not think I’m perfect, but I try to be satisfied with who I am and what my life is. I act as if I am content with all of my decisions.
But behind the curtain, there’s a looking glass into all the times I’ve hurt someone. All the regrets I have. All the friendships and relationships I’ve had and lost. All the rejections I’ve felt. The sadness I feel. The emotions that have surged and faded like everything else in the world.
The phone calls I didn’t return or didn’t receive. The love I gave but didn’t get back. And the love I was given but couldn’t return.
But I mustn’t go behind this curtain. It’s unfamiliar and frightening.
My throat closes in when I go back there, and the walls come right up close to my head.
I get the urge to apologize to everyone I know. I’m sorry M- for being so selfish. I’m sorry S- for leaving you. I’m sorry L- for not showing you how much I really care.
I need to get outside when I let myself go back behind that curtain. I need space, but I also need company.
I wonder why I am so sad. I wonder if everyone is this sad too. Maybe everyone has a stage and a curtain.
Maybe everyone has sadness piling up behind the scenes in a place that is difficult to get to, and even more difficult to tidy.
Maybe it’s harder to be vulnerable today than it used to be. Maybe it’s our boxed world with box offices and box apartments and box lunches and box devices and box bodies. Each under our control, yet with no one to share with.