write a big essay on you are a student of board class how do you feel about it and how was your journey in school what are your plans to face board exams
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I still remember that dreadful day.
I was an average student passionate about science since childhood. I only studied when I felt like studying. Back then I played outside and never attended any tutions and only studied by myself. Somehow I scored really well in my 10th board exams. Took science with passion.
Call it Family pressure, Society pressure, Peer pressure but somehow I ended up in a coaching centre. Daily going there and grinding my head on numericals and marking IIT questions and solving guess papers for 5–7 hrs. I stopped going outside. Stopped playing outside. Started stress eating. Started gaining weight.
It took me one bad year to realize that I wasn't meant for this. The only thing that kept me sane was biology as I studied it all by myself. But the damage was done I passed class 11 with a mere perecentage of close to 60% though I topped in biology and english.
Then 12 started this time it was all by myself. No coaching, No tutions. Although I still received a magazine for MBBS preparation but i didn't wanted to even pursue that. Now you can imagine the plight of a Science student who doesn't want to do Medical or Engineering. I gave my everything for the boards. Though during the start of boards a family tragedy occured. I still gave my exams.
During the results day I already knew that I was not going to score well. Everone was telling you will be scoring good. But I knew that I won't still I had expectations of scoring atleast above 80 % .
When I checked the result after trying the slow server very early in the morning several times I was in one word - Shocked.
English- The subject in which I topped in preboard (93) . I got marks in the 70's. Whereas others whose hand writing are unreadable got marks in 80's. I still think I should have took the chance of revaluation.Maths-The paper which came was a total disaster though cbse said that leniency would be maintained. I actually expected marks in 65's with leniency but to my surprise I got marks in 50's.Physics- Gave a good exam and got good marks. In 80's.Chemistry - Gave an alright exam and got good marks in 80's.Biology- I had scored 2nd highest in the preboards (92) but because of the bad maths paper Out of 4 days before the biology exam i couldn't study for 3 days. But anyways I ended up in 80's.So, I ended up with about 75% marks. I couldn't believe that. My mom was waiting to know my result in my room. But I told her the internet isn't working.And after a while there I was sitting in front of my computer looking at those marks. I couldn't believe it. I started to calculate the percentage againon a calculator. Then i thought to myself that maybe i checked the CBSE site too soon and maybe it will update my marks later . But it didn't happen.
I went to my mother all sad and hopeless and told her that my career is over. I was sad all day. More for english then in maths. I even stopped preparing for entrances only studied biology for medical. I was exhausted from my life. From the rat race.
Couldn't get into NISER for just a little difference, Got a chance in a Private Dental college through NEET 1 but didn't go for it. I didn't sit for re-exam as I already decided what I wanred to do.
Fast Forward a Year Now when I look back I actually am proud that it happened.I am fine that I couldn't score what people expected from me. Because If I had scored good I would have been miserable studying CSE as it is top branch according to the society.
I realized that even though I worked very hard that year the reason I couldn't do well was I never felt like doing it. I was always forced to study.
And now I am studying biotechnology and planning ahead my research career and further study. I am working on a project paper with one of my friends , attended two Biology Conferences and did Two Coursera courses In Bioinformatics and Immunology. Though I know maybe I will not earn good in future choosing this path but I am Happy :)